We have moved into our own place! Finally! Geeeez! It’s been long enough hasn’t it.
it’s a two bedroom split level maisonette! In a lovely town! So happy! The rooms are a bit odd though, like they don’t have straight walls they’re an odd shape so can’t really do much with them. But it’s just us 3 FINALLY! :D
Right now me and Izzy are laying next to one another under covers watching cbeebies :D This is lovely!! I love living on our own cause now I feel like we are a proper family rather than I am with the O’Reilly family in their house if that makes sense.
Anyway I’m gonna browse tumblr.
Ciao
I said ‘Hello Isabelle!’ I cried while saying it!
1 hour and 40 minutes!! Oh yeah!! I’m gonna make it!!
It’s 4:00am!! Only 3 hours!!! I’m getting there slowly!! So very tires though!
I think I might be pregnant! I might be completely off the mark here but I’m getting a few symptoms, I’m due on on the 26th so we’ll just see.
The funny thing is that Joe and I were trying for a few months and then decided not to because I wanted to quit my job and spend more time at home with Izzy and so we haven’t tried at all this month, I can clearly see what date we would have conceived if we are but I thought that was a ‘safe’ day!
That’s the only think turning my opinion away, is how little we’ve tried!!
Right now I’m at work and I am soo tired the thought of jumping into bed seems soo appealing! I have to just get through 3 1/2 hours. I have a supervision with a care leader this morning but I don’t have the form I filled out! :/ I hope it doesn’t matter.
I’ll write before I go to sleep to let Tumblr know I’ve made it!!
I’m watching desperate housewives and it always makes me think of my life and want to make it so much nicer and better! I don’t know how though! I guess I want lots of friends and chats over coffee and a lovely neighbourhood and a lovely house.
Happy new year!! Again it’s been ages! My little girl is 1! I’ve been married almost a year and a half I am tidier we are saving more. Work is good! I am constantly surrounded by death! Everywhere I look I see it!! Maybe it’s a sign!! Who knows. I’m going to live my life so to the full this year and I’m not Gunna let anything hold me back!! One thing I have realised is even though I had a crap childhood, my life is wonderful now! And if I really think about it I have made quite a lot of my life since I was 15 (that was the age I broke free from my awful parents and started fighting to live my life!! Yep, I’ve decided! Everything I want to do this year I’m going to do!! I’m not even Gunna think about it to much!! Also I think I’m saving all this money for a house but I could die before I buy one :/ I dunno. I’m in the bath at the mo and my iPhone battery is at 6% and my mother in law in watching Isabelle. So I ought to stop writing and get on with things. Ciao.
Dear Tumblr,
It’s been too long!! I’ve been soo busy! It’s been 2 weeks and 2 days since my grandad died. I always thought when one of my grandparents died I would be in my bed for days and not stop crying, but everyone has actually dealt with it better than I thought they would, even myself. It’s still very sad though and now my grandma is ill! It’s awful!
Work is more awful though, there is a tonne of bitching and gossiping, and this was the reason I decided not to pursue hairdressing, I never expected it in caring, and definitely not from a bunch of 30+ adults! Geez! However I am going to be mature and just be nice anyway! But then I think what if they are horrible how will I deal with that? I hate feuds, especially when I have to be around that person for 10 hours! Oh Oh Oh! :(
I am so the type of person who prefers everyone to get on and if they have a problem they talk to the person with which they have said problem with rather than talking to someone else. I just think HOW DOES THAT HELP?!?! It makes no sense at all!
Oh well! I guess it’s life. I haven’t got my NVQ in health and social care yet, so if I leave Rock House I don’t have an option to go to another care home! It’s not good, so if I want to get anywhere I just have to stick it out! I’m dreading it though!
Joe’s birthday tomorrow.
My grandad died recently! On thursday at 00:10 actually! Probably the saddest moment of my life and the hardest 4 days I have ever had! He got septicaemia last Thursday but he seemed to be okay but then on the Saturday we found he had got a chest infection (this is making me feel really sad but it’s probably for the better as I haven’t let myself think about it since he died) the chest infection meant he had to have oxygen to breath for him! This was when we started to worry, he would have been 80 in December, god I was talking about him coming to Isabelle’s 1st birthday party in November not too long ago! :( god! Anyway, on Sunday we found out it had got so bad they put him in an induced coma and he was on life support! Being given antibiotics, they told us that it could go either way at this point, anyway Monday he wasn’t getting better or worse, Tuesday they turned down his oxygen from 40% to 35% and were talking about putting his oxygen tube in this neck rather than his mouth so they could think about waking up so we thought this meant good things! Well on Wednesday, midday we get told that there is nothing more they can do for him and they are going to turn off his life support machine once everyone has said goodbye! This was such a shock! So there we were, all in tears gathered at wexham park hospital ITU! taking it in turns to say our goodbyes, however we were told they would turn it off, probably Friday so everyone has had a chance to say goodbye, so we didn’t say our final, final goodbyes as we were planning to come back on Thursday and again on friday. My sister comes up from Plymouth and informs us that they were planning on turning it of that night! So I literally rang everyone to tell them and everyone came to say goodbye!! So Wednesday night we were all gathered round his bed… Me Emma (my sister) Jamie & Faye (my brother and his girlfriend who happens to be my best friend) My Mum My Uncle Simon My Grandma My Aunty Helen My cousins Jessie with her bf Tom, Molly and Charlie. An they turned off his oxygen, they told us he would die but whether it was 3 minutes or 3 days they didn’t know, anyway, at 00:10 on Thursday morning, with all of us holding him and talking to him, he died! The way I deal with things is I just don’t think about them and then they don’t hurt me! So that’s what I have been doing! It’s not good at night though, I haven’t slept properly since. I don’t know how to deal with it normally though! Shit! I dont know!